To be able to fully trust the guidance your spiritual gifts provide, you must first connect to the source of those gifts.
Have you ever been able to use a mobile device without first connecting it to the web? Of course not! Without a connection, it can’t serve its purpose in your life.
The same applies to the way your spiritual system must stay connected to your spiritual source to feel purposeful and vital within your body.
And whether a journey lasts a few days or many decades, the most important key to navigating it is making sure your inner voice is firmly connected to this higher perspective that can scan the landscape and provide a better view when you feel lost or off track.
These days, we have handheld GPS systems to tell us where to turn and how to instantly re-route when we miss them. They even give us real-time info about traffic and road closures.
Physical journeys have been made much more transparent by this technology.
But what about our inner journeys?
After all, our perception of the physical world is the only lens through which we can experience it, so it can be said that one’s inner experience is even more important than one’s outer experience.
Two people can go on identical trips and have vastly different stories about what it was like, because inwardly they have such different judgments and fears about what-is.
I, for one, have been both of those people at different points in my life.
My mental stories and emotional beliefs about what-is have changed so much over the years, but one thing has stayed constant...
And that is my sense that a higher power exists, and the quality of my physical life has a direct correlation to how much I include (or exclude) this omnipresent, balancing consciousness in my own perception of what-is.
Some folks live a long while before they start trying to figure this stuff out, but I started on this lesson very young.
Before the age of 6, I was a very connected kid.
I felt God everywhere. And being an only child, I had a lot of time to spend in solitude. I listened to wisdom in the wind and my connection to a higher power felt very natural to me.
However, in the fall of my first grade year, my father died suddenly.
He was my best friend.
I didn’t get to say goodbye.
In a flash, my little life became a big blur.
I was taught that God loved everyone and would never do anything to hurt us, as long as we were in his favor… yet I was seriously hurting.
As you can imagine, my six-year-old mind began to spiral downward...what did I do wrong? Why did this happen? Is it my fault? Can this be changed?
I asked adults and prayed every night. Not surprisingly, no satisfactory answers could be found. My sadness hardened into anger.
I remember lying in bed one night, sick of the grief and confusion.
I yelled at God.
“I renounce you!” I said through angry tears, “And until you send my dad back, I will never talk to you again!”
(Don’t ask me how I knew the word “renounce” at 6 years old...)
And as vivid and heartbreaking as that memory is to me, even more so are the years that followed. I was bullied in school as I struggled with a complex grief even adults have trouble living with.
I still knew that God was there... but I was also still mad and determined to keep it that way.
By the time I was in high school, I lived with full-blown depression. You know, the kind where you feel so obtuse in the world you can’t even imagine what feeling better could possibly look like. I began to identify as a “lost soul”, not yet knowing that we are never really lost, no matter how bad we feel.
My psychic senses also began to reawaken during this time, as did my curiosity about ancient wisdom and spirituality.
Several books were suggested by friends, and I learned to read esoteric tarot cards to help find a deeper understanding of my life and why things happened as they did.
Finally, a spark of light to illuminate my darkness! Yet as positive as this discovery was, that spark never quite grew into the roaring fire that I craved in my soul.
For years, I wandered in a confusion relieved by the moments of clarity the cards would bring.
Even through the dark night that was my college years, and the slow awakening that followed in my twenties... I knew I could depend on moments of clarity coming and going, but quite often I was lonely, sad and not sure how to shake the heaviness of my uninspired life.
I also struggled to trust psychic information I received, because if I was so confused, how in the world could I be a container of clarity for others?
It was not until my thirties that I found the key to everything.
It was time to forgive and forget.
I had to make amends with my god/source.
I had heard teachers talk about psychic development, mediumship, medical intuition, manifestation, energy healing (and do much more in the realm of metaphysics). I had also been a recipient or practiced all these things in some way, shape or form.
And usually, in the background of these practices, there was some talk about divine intelligence flowing through all-that-is.
Finally, I started to put it together in my own way.
In order to trust my spiritual gifts, I had relied on the feedback I got from the world. When others said I was good at channeling guidance for them, I started to believe it.
I also knew that it was in those moments of reading others that I intentionally opened myself as a channel for source wisdom and spirit communication.
But to fully trust my intuition and spiritual gifts to guide my own life? That would mean I had to stay plugged in, 24/7.
I could no longer be a part time channel for source and expect my life to work at its optimal level.
And at this point, I realized that “optimal” meant feeling connected, protected and peacefully guided each step of the way, no matter what I was going through.
Once I committed to tending my connection to source on a daily basis, everything changed.
I started repeating a special invocation that affirmed my connection with gratitude, setting the intention to be a channel of wisdom, peace and love instead of looking to the world to provide those things for me.
My ratio of good days to bad days flipped completely. My health and inner radiance increased. My confidence went through the roof. My inner peace flourished and emotional balance became far less elusive.
So you see, there is a way to feel fully present and powerful as a spiritual being in this human life. It takes forgiveness, humility and practice. But In asking for it and acting accordingly, we always receive what we need.
And the good news is, no matter how long we have tried to go it alone, Source is always waiting just beyond the veil to fill us up again.
No matter how angry or doubtful we get, it never has anything less than complete and total love for us.
Have you felt abandoned by god lately or on the outs with your source? Is it hard to imagine or describe your personal relationship to a higher power?
You’re not alone.
In fact, that describes most folks here on planet earth. And yet, it is our personal connection to our collective source that connects us to the web of all-that-is, including each other.
It’s a lot less lonely here once you get that sense of oneness established in your being... and the only way to get it is to “plug in” and allow the divine life force to heal your life.
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